Transition by =NaBHaN on deviantART
i am working my way thru the transition from the psyche drugs back to the real me.. and i must say all told i feel as if i made the right decision..
the feelings of sadness and depression have all but left me.. the feeling that i need to run away,, go home,, flee this place,, have subsided… i am no longer feeling as if i am a stir crazy bird in a cage,, but the feeling of anxiety upon waking is still with me..
i am sure that time will in turn take care of that too,, and i will soon be back to the real me.. you never appreciate what you’ve got till its gone do you??
little by little my muse appears in flashes,, i am able to write a small piece or poem and find great fulfillment in even being able to do that.. soon it will be time to resume creative writing on a regular basis and i am happy about that.. i find solace in my writing,, and i miss that very much..
i am going to bring ben down tomorrow because i found evidence of mouse activity in an old unused dresser.. he is going to help me put traps under the house and put a face plate on an open electrical outlet that was hidden behind the dresser which is surely how they got in.. once that is under control i shouldn’t have a care in the world.. or a reason for any form of anxiety.. isn’t he a dear,, willing to come help me,, all i had to do is ask??
maybe then i will be able to get my muse back in place and be able to bring more to the table than me and my internal strife.. thanks again for always being there for me when i need someone to talk to..
June 28th, 2009 at 9:12 pm
Sending some warm thoughts your way.
June 28th, 2009 at 10:37 pm
I am really glad it is working out for you with regard to getting off the meds. I just wanted to say that as far as I was concerned you were still able to write brilliantly the whole time. However, I do understand that feeling of a block being there. Things are only going to get better, Pais!
June 29th, 2009 at 11:12 am
Having followed you on some of your journey, I am so happy for you and the course you have chosen in life. Good for you, my dear. Oh, and I love the illustration for this blog item.
June 30th, 2009 at 6:40 am
I like this work. The simplicity of drawing and the beautiful colours reminds me of the japanese old stamps
June 30th, 2009 at 9:49 am
Ah, it is so good to hear that you are in a place where you are feeling more like your authentic self… hugs.
June 30th, 2009 at 4:49 pm
Your Ben sounds like a great guy. It’s good to have a friend when you really need one. As far as your writing goes, I hope you get your mojo back, though to me it doesn’t seem like you ever lost it. Even if you’re not writing as much fiction or poetry, you’re still writing, and that’s creative.
June 30th, 2009 at 7:16 pm
Hello Paisley~ I’m pleased to hear everything is getting back in order for you. And yes, Ben sounds like a nice guy for helping you when you needed it. Hope all continues to go in the direction you want. Good night~
July 1st, 2009 at 12:29 am
There is a lovely sense of inner calm in this post! Wonderful!
July 1st, 2009 at 6:57 am
I am so happy you are beginning to feel like YOURSELF again. And, you will be able to write and create like only YOU can do in no time at all.
xoxoox